New Car

July 12, 2010 at 2:29 pm (Uncategorized)

Hey Mama,

Well, I did it for the first time myself.  I bought a car.  I went to 7 different places to look for one and finally went to the last one, tired as hell, miserable as hell and just told them what I wanted and found the perfect car!!!!  I LOVE IT!  I wish you were here to see it.

Your car has been nothing but problems for me.  The roof leaks, the gasket blew, the brakes squeal….so Im guess everything happens for a reason.  The real kicker with your car is Emma had a hard time being in it.  She kept thinking of you and getting upset.  So it all worked out in the long wrong.

I miss you.  I think about you often and wish you were here with me.  Its been a rough couple weeks for me but I am staying strong.

I have been drinking too much.  I hate being alone.  But I am getting better.  At least for now.

I love you.


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They keep saying it will get better

July 8, 2010 at 2:53 pm (Uncategorized)

I keep saying when??

Your car that I inherited blew a gasket. My oven broke. My phone is not working correctly. I had to call the cops on Mike.

My life is hell right now. I blame you today.

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I guess time does heal all wounds

July 1, 2010 at 1:45 pm (Uncategorized)

Hey mom,

Its been awhile since I have sat down to write you.  I guess it could be because I spent a few hours sitting with you and reading the weekend of Father’s Day.  It was nice to be able to talk to you and granny and grandad….of course until the cemetery landscape people came around.  I took a before and after picture of your resting place…before because it looked like no one cared for it in some time.  After because I left you for a little bit and came back with flowers.   Definitely looks better.

I brought you home with me too.  The airport didn’t give me any trouble carrying you on the plane.  Although one guy at the bar I ate at asked me if it was cake in the box.  Imagine the surprise when I told him what it was 🙂

Just wanted to check in, still have good days and bad, but things are getting better.

I miss you.

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