Sleep

October 1, 2010 at 12:56 pm (Uncategorized)

I haven’t slept in three days.  I am a walking zombie.  I don’t know where to turn, where to go, who to call, who to talk to.  Im just going through the motions.

Yesterday was a little difficult.

This all started because I cleaned my carport.  The memories flooded me and I couldn’t get the gate shut.  I still can’t.  Yesterday they took the “trash” away.  The “trash” that I didn’t want to save, I didn’t want to sell, I just wanted gone.  The constant reminders that you are gone, I wanted gone.

It was difficult to watch.  But I couldn’t turn my eyes away.  Dave is the one that came to do it.  He put my railing up too.  Well started to anyway.  He knew it was hard, I mean, he has been there for me for years.  He was one of the first to come help clean out your house.  Dave is also the one that convinced me “its been a year Kristina, time to do something about the carport”

And so it begins…….I just need to find someone to help push the gate closed.

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